does the world have to be so cruel?

Rin was perfectly fine yesterday, then today I go to feed her and she doesn't respond. I had a hard time getting her out of her house and she was barely breathing.

I thought, hoped, maybe she just got too cold and went into a hibernation state. So I was holding her trying to warm her up. She seemed to be coming round but then seizured in my arms I couldn't take it so I passed her over to my mum, where she died.

She wasn't even a year old.
I miss her so much already. Kisa was only put down in April, to lose another hamster so soon is hard. I don;t think I'll be able to handle getting another hamster. ;;